The battle continues

I'm still 40 pounds overweight. I've hurt my arm and that has hindered my exercise. It stinks.

OMG this is hard

It is now July 26, 2010. I haven't blogged in quite awhile and am now40 pounds overweight. I've gained 9 pounds in just the last 3 months. I don't know why because I exercise. Everything I read says that I must be eating more than I burn. I am so frustrated and have become depressed. I have nothing else to be depressed about. C and I married in June. We have a new house and went on a fabulous honeymoon. We both are employed and have money. I don't know why I keep eating and abusing my body. I'm going to try and blog better and maybe this will help me. I need help. God I pray that you will take the desire for sugar away from me and help me to return to healthy eating. I also pray that you would return to me the ability to sleep through the night. Right now it is 4 in the morning and I have been up for almost an hour. I think I will try to go back to sleep.

diet

I swam 100 lengths today. I didn't do the best eating wise. I had popcorn at the movies, but it was the kids meal. (with choc. covered raisins) I just am having a hard time giving up something that I love even if it isn't good for me. I want to start a sugar addiction support group.

Day 1 February 21, 2010

The time has come for me to face the fact that I am a sugar addict and food pig. I must get control of my eating. I am a yo-yo dieter and now am suffering with 25 extra pounds. The truth of the matter is I love to eat. I eat when stressed, happy, bored, and hungry. I love all types of food mexican, grilled, junk, american etc. I especially love baked goods cookies, cakes, pies, candy etc. I have decided to create this blog to write down my eating and exercise. If I write it down I might be able to stick to healthy eating. I know I can't just tell myself no more sugar or I will go balistic and eat it all the time. I just need to eat healthy and exercise. Iplan to take all I have learned and use it to the best of my ability. For today I will eat cereal, grilled chicken, salad and vegetables. I no longer plan to cook fancy meals to impress Carlos because we end up throwing a lot of it away and he will eat what ever anyhow. I plan to swim today for exercise. I've had a cold, but I need to feel the way I feel after swimming. I won't post my weight because I don't want anyone to know what it is. I will just post my progress. Today though, I'm too afraid to even step on the scale. I'll weigh next week after I've had a week of healthy eating. For now, I just need to go one day at a time and sometimes one minute at a time.